Okay—wait—listen. I need to say this out loud so I don’t chicken out.

I still have the tapes. From October. I’m listening to them again. And I decided I’m not just… sitting with that. I’m writing them down. Like, properly. Transcripts. Just my side, obviously. It’s literally just me talking.

And I made a website. It’s up. I’m putting the transcripts there as I do them. Not later. Now.

Because—okay—here’s the plan. The plan is I’m gonna turn this into a book. About the show. About Bloody Catboy. Since it’s gone. Since I can’t find it anywhere. The transcripts are the proof it existed. The story I can still grab.

So the transcripts come first. Then I use them to write the actual book. That’s how this works in my head. If I don’t start with what I actually said back then, I’m just gonna lie to myself about it.

What? Yes, I know how that sounds. I know.

I’m not cleaning it up. I’m not pretending I was normal. It’s messy on purpose.

You don’t have to read it. I’m not asking for permission. I’m just telling you this is happening.

Okay. I’m gonna play the next tape. I think this is the one where I really lose it.

I’ll call you later.

[Click.]

Bloody Catboy is a a writing project with no real plan. I invite you to follow me writing this. I’ll publish worldbuilding, character arcs, plot points and of course the chapters. And I want your feedback: what is working? What is not? You have another or even better idea? I’d like to hear it! You do not like it? I am very fine with that, just stay friendly. The comment system works anonymous, all data is stored on my servers.